Kiersty's Garden

Here is our two week update of our garden. Kiersty LOVES her garden and asks to go out there almost every minute of they day. Her problem is though that she knows how to turn the hose on and refuses to leave it alone. I can try to block her way to it, cover it, distract her. Nada. Here is my pretty little girl with her flower. I took this a day or two ago and it has already doubled from here.

Spare the Air Day

Adam rides the bus every day to school and back because its free for Chico State students. The kids have been asking to ride the Daddy Bus everyday when he leaves to go to school. Yesterday Adam text me that bus rides were free all day for spare the air day. Hmm I bet the kids would love to ride the bus today. Waiting for the bus...

Someone left the window open on the bus and the kids were in hog heaven! No car seats AND I can stick my face out the open window to feel the breeze?? Note: they couldn't fit their whole head out the window!

After we got downtown we went to eat at the Bear with Daddy. He taught them how to play the shoot'em up game.

After this we walked around downtown for a bit at the Farmer's Market and then caught the bus home. They were EXHAUSTED when we got home, which was good because the new Big Bang was coming on in 30 minutes. Haha. Its the only show we care about now a days. I LOVE Amy- she's Hilarious!

Bradley's update

Oh that little boy is a cut and copy of Adam- its ridiculous!! He doesn't like to eat much, but when he does- holy cow! He ate three peices of French Toast the other night. I ate two...

He Loves to build legos. He usually builds by color. This day he was just focused on making the tower taller than himself.

This kid cracks me up!

Kiersten's funny sayings

This little kid is one silly girl! She is constantly talking and into everything. Apple doesn't fall far from the tree I guess. Yesterday Kiersten and I were walking and I was pushing the double stroller. She wanted to push the stroller herself so she tells me: "Mommy go away! My turn" "That's not nice, use your manners" "Mommy go away, please?" She is always asking for "my turns" Today we were driving and listening to the annoying children's song CD. Twinkle Twinkle Little Star comes on and I start singing it with her. She said - "No Mommy, its my turn!" During the bridge she says- Ok Mommy's turn! As soon as the words come back she demanded I stop singing so she could sing the next verse. Silly kid.

This year's garden

Last year's garden was a FAIL. The dirt patch in our backyard was filled with junk for the first two layers (which I did my best to clean) and then clay after that. Doesn't help when you have rude neighbors that poor their sodas from their balcony into my garden. I mean seriously?! You can't see my plants and cute little signs? OOh well, on a better note! This year I decided to plant buckets and pots and not put anything in the ground.

Here is our first phase of the garden. I have things in tiny cups till they sprout. Left to right we cilantro in clay pots, watermelon in the brown disposables, zucchinis in the dixie cups, and then a sunflower in the small green one. Oh, and of course an awesome tomato plant on the ground in a pot. I didn't really want to plant watermelon but it was a really cute kit of Larry the cucumber and the tomato dude. Kiersten used up all the stickers on the way home though. Silly kid! I'm thinking we'll sprout it and then give it away when it gets too big.

My Difficult weekend

I had my D&C on Friday. It wasn't difficult physically, but mentally it was the hardest thing I had to do. I went to the ambulatory services, which in the hospital I went to, is just around the corner from the maternity ward. I was the very first bed to the door and could see the hall way. And really, why do the nurses have to ask such STUPID questions?!? For example- is there any chance that your pregnant right now? Uhh. That's why I am here... So just before I wheeled to the OR a new mom walked past with her tiny baby and all her flowers and balloons. Oh I just lost it and just cried and cried. While waiting in the per-operating room- which because they were busy I was hanging with the copier machine and water cooler... This nurse walks up and says "You look like your sad- I feel like I should cheer you up". Then she told me the WORST story you could ever tell someone in my situation at the time. Apparently when she was pregnant with her last, she miscarried and was going to have a d&C. Well I guess last minute while they were wheeling her in the OR they noticed hers labs were doing better and they did an ultrasound and saw the baby was still alive and doing well so they canceled the D&C- last minute. REALLY?! Why would you say that to someone who is going in to the OR any second and is already crying? I know she was trying to be nice, but good heavens, Share a different story. In the recovery room the ONLY rocking chair in the huge room was right next to my bed. I know I was WAY sensitive but anything was making me cry. Then the guy next to me just kept complaining over and over. The nurses at the station were chatting about a brand new baby boy that was born. They were swooning over his picture and just kept going on and on. I started crying...again... and my nurse comes over and asked what was wrong. I asked her to tell the nurses to change the topic and my nurse YELLED across the room- Hey zip it! The nurses apologized and it sure shut the guy up next me! Oh anyway! I didn't have much pain till Saturday. I felt like things flip flopped. I got my last good cry in and am coming around to acceptance and am doing better with the loss. Pain wise though- Oh man! I was HURTING Saturday! I tried to stay in bed all day or lay down while Donna took the kids to the Children's Fair. I HATE vicodin. Well, it doesn't really work for me and I don't want it because of the addictive capability of it. My dr told me to stop being stubborn and to take two of my medicine to help me heal. I slept WELL Saturday night! Well, heh, actually, I didn't really wake up till 3pm on Sunday. Today is Monday. Donna is home, Adam is at school till 5:30pm, and I am by myself. I went to the gym today and went to spin class for 30 min. Mostly...I just put the kids in day care haha. I went super easy on the spin bike and then took a nap on the chairs out back for a little bit. Both the mental and physical pain is getting better. Do you know how many ensign articles mention miscarriages?? A LOT. There was even a How To survive one- for the mother, Father, and a friend. I thought it was really cool. Soo...That's how I am doing...

Sad Day.

Well my dr's appointment didn't go well and we lost the baby. According to my first appointment I didn't measure as far along as I thought so they bumped me back from 7 weeks to 5 weeks. Which would have meant I knew I was pregnant at 2 weeks- which is way too early for an at home test. So I believe I was 9 weeks today instead of their adjusted 7 weeks. This is so much harder than I thought it was going to be. I feel like I have lost the baby twice. First when I started bleeding and now again today. The two weeks of limbo and gaining hope back has made it worse. Its just so hard and I want to be by myself and drown myself in ice cream. I know its not healthy but that's how I want to cope right now. Adam has his Tuba recital tomorrow evening and his parents were planning on coming up for the day. I called his mom and asked her to come up a day early to help watch the kids while I grieve.