Crazy school life!

School life is extremely busy but we are surviving. The kids miss Adam a lot because he is gone student teaching all day and has night classes for his credential 3 times a week. The kids LOVE preschool! All of their teachers are amazing and we haven't had a single problem! Their school is so awesome! The kids are learning to label emotions, gaining new friends, can count to 20, and are a TON more independent. The kids helped me study for map test of Africa- which the test suuuucked. On all our map tests we have to memorize all of the countries AND capitals of a given continent and then he just has us name 10 from each at his random choosing. The problem with Africa is that the capitals all sounded alike to me!

So we are still alive. The blog is suffering but most important, keeping up the house is suffering. Why is it so hard to keep a house clean when you aren't home often?! I need a maid...

Cupcake time!

I had to give a demonstration speech in my public speaking class. The first thing that popped into my head that wasn't about being a mom were these super awesome creative cupcakes.

I went crazy finding new kinds of cupcakes on Pinterest. It was a great outlet to make these! My class LOVED them! I wanted to speak earlier than last position so I bribed someone with their first choice of a cupcake... And then I wanted someone to move the table for me because I was wearing my heels. It.was.awesome.

Uhh Did I tell you we took the kids to the zoo this summer? I really don't remember and I don't see a post about it....

The kids and Adam on the carousel

Kiersten and Daddy looking at the giraffes.

Watching the tortoise move sloooowwwwwlllyyy. Well.... That was a quick update of the zoo...

Third Birthday!

Bradley and Kiersten turned three years old last month! It was the first week of school so we knew it was going to be super busy. Adam had about an hour from when he got home from student teaching to when he had to start his night class. We had a party in Modesto with my sisters and nephews (pictures to come when I get them from my sister) We got the kids their favorite dinner- Papa Murphies, then we picked up a cupcake each from B&N (free cupcake for kids for their birthday). We took them home, sang to them, opened gifts, and then Adam was out the door. Bradley got a tool kit set. As you can tell, he was SO EXCITED!!

Kiersten got Bambi, which by the way, is a super scary movie!!

Singing to the kids. They wanted to have a Dora and Diego cupcake. About a month ago while visiting Modesto, we found cupcakes in the bakery with little plastic heads of Dora, Boots, and Diego. Lucky for us, they forgot about them so they were so excited to see them!

Off to school.....

The kids are going to preschool this year! They are so grown up! The first two pictures are from orientation. They were so excited to go. On our list of things to bring with us had swim suits. Kiersten was so excited of the thought of going swimming with 20+ new friends.

Kiersten looks so grown up!

Bradley wasn't as excited but he still was ready for the adventure.

Shaved ice!

We have been driving by this really cute penny candy store for years now saying every time, oh we should stop there soon... Since this is Adam's last year at Chico State, we will go wherever the wind blows next summer. We are trying to check off items from our Chico bucket list- like that penny candy shop. Well we finally made our stop and we thought it was worth two spoons up!

DELISH shaved ice! And for only a $1! We wanted to stop on the way home too but we had just been to sonics for Slushes. But we will definitely stop there again! (and again...)

Another hard post....

This is another very hard blog post.... Adam and I found out we were pregnant again at the beginning of June. I was very scared and unsure because it had only been a month from my D&C. I talked to my nurse about the possibility of it being old hormones that had not fully gone away yet. She said it was very unlikely it was left over hormones and that yes I was pregnant again. We really didn't tell too many people again just in case. I went to my ultrasound and just like both of my other pregnancies, I wasn't as far along as I thought I was because the baby was too small for a heartbeat. I did two HCG tests and a follow up ultrasound in a week and a half. I got my first HCG results and it came back as 17,000. I was stoked! I was so happy! My miscarriage ended at 1,800- Muuuuch better! I had only had a handful of migraines, no cramping, no bleeding- nothing. I finally told my parents after I got those results. I had to wait the whole weekend for my next HCG results. Monday comes so I call in. It only went from a 17K to 22K. Bad news- I was suppose to be in the 30's. I was crushed and confused- wasn't everything going great?? At my ultrasound there wasn't a baby. I had a an-embroyotic miscarriage where the baby dies early and gets reabsorbed but the sac still grows strong and emits tons of hormones. The sac was growing in accordance to me being 9 weeks but there wasn't a "yolk" there. My doctor said I could wait it out but it could take up to six weeks and then a D&C would be mandatory. I was having NO physical signs so I had no clue how long it would take. I wanted the D&C because I hate the waiting game. I did not have the mental strength to go through the hell I went through last time. My appointment was on Thursday and my D&C was scheduled for Tuesday. By Sunday night I was I so scared. I still had no physical proof that I had lost the baby. I still felt sick because the sac was still growing and increasing hormones. We had a friend come over and gave us both blessings and the blessing was amazing in two ways- It confirmed that I had chosen the right decision and that I required the D&C. The second thing was- hormones and dwelling on negative things create very bad results! I was becoming terrified that we weren't suppose to have anymore kids. My blessing let me know that we needed to wait but we would be blessed with more kids in the future. I tried to be as strong as possible when I went in for my procedure Tuesday at the butt crack of dawn. I talked with my nurse when I was checked in and told her all the problems of my last procedure with everyone being so insensitive. I wanted to be far from the door. No talks of babies by the nurses. Rocking chair far from me in the recovery room. I brought a book to distract me and I just did my best to see the good in things. This experience was much better. Adam didn't have finals and recitals he had to perform in so he was able to stay with me. Afterwards I went home and slept all day long. I took my pain meds this time but it was so much harder recovery! I couldn't use the restroom all day Tuesday and Wednesday was improved but not good. By Thursday night I was in serious pain and Kiersten had ran and jumped on my belly and sent me into crying pain. I took two vicodin but it didn't even touch the pain I was in. Adam took me to the ER where they catheterized me. That was the WORST pain in my life! I thought the nurse and I were pretty good buddies until then. I told her she wasn't allowed near me again after that haha. They ran several tests, cultures, ultrasounds, but things came back ok. After I was catheterized I could finally pee again so it relieved a LOT of the pain I was in. My kidneys were screaming in pain! So I came home and was told to rest and keep up my meds and make sure I go to my Dr next week. Also at the ER I found out that I had to do blood tests to follow my hormones down to zero with this kind of miscarriage. I didn't know that. I was down to 4K by now but I still have a little bit to go. I still haven't really processed this baby all the way. We gave the last baby a name and gender to grieve and accept it. This week and been so hectic and busy its hard to relax from everything and finalize things. All I know is that I KNOW that both my little babies are waiting for me in heaven. I talked to my Dad this week and he told me that my little babies were so righteous in the preexistence that they didn't need to come down to Earth to be tested. They had already earned their spots in the celestial kingdom. I like looking at it from that prospective and it gave me some comfort and peace. Well, I don't really know how to end this post. I keep this blog as my journal and I was dying to let something out of me and to write it down. I am sorry if my posts are graphic or TMI on bodily functions. Anyways. I have a testimony in my Savior. I know he is with me and guides me in life. I am so grateful for the gospel and an eternal perspective on things. I am SO grateful for blessings and probably get more than my fair share of them.